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| loss leaves behind so many memories |
[06 Oct 2004|09:01pm] |
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Memory//Sugarcult
This may never start.
We could fall a p a r t.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could n e v e r feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
I'll t e a r us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you h e r e
I'd be your anything.
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never s t a r t.
Tearing out my <heart3.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we l a s t e d.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings i n s i n c e r e.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?
[name withheld]: lauren's the memory i dont have
snifftheemokid: i always wanted to be someone's memory
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| i havent updated in a hella long time. i do feel this is the quintessential summer song. like the good and the bad all in one. i think. |
[05 Jul 2004|01:55pm] |
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The Taste of Ink//The Used
Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your s p o t l i g h t on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river d r o w n i n g
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be f r e e
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm p r e t t y
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
And we'll drink and dance the night away
As long as you're a l i v e
Here I am
I promise I will take you there
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[31 May 2004|01:13am] |
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1. Find your birth month in the cut and put it in an entry.
2. Italicize anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the best that apply to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a journal cut for someone else to do.
OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
( and every new boy that you meet doesn't know the real surprise )
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[30 May 2004|06:11pm] |
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Sign Off//Sugarcult
Wake up all a l o n e
Sending postcards back to home
On the road
If the medication works
Could I be the way I was?
In control
You painted a picture
I'm the worst type of s i n n e r
You know
You painted a picture
Happier than I can afford
Nobody can save me
Nobody can save me
Nobody can say what i'll do if I'm alone
Sign off
Sign off
Sign off
Sign off (nobody can save me)
Sign off
Sign off (nobody can save me)
S i g n o f f
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[16 May 2004|05:27pm] |
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again i go unnoticed//dashboard confessional |
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( and another one )
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[16 May 2004|05:25pm] |
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dirty white boy//foreigner |
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( really bored )
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[09 May 2004|02:14pm] |
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could it be im falling in love//the spinners |
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| I am the Rake A woman never quite feels desired and appreciated enough. She wants attention, but a man is too often distracted and unresponsive. The Rake is a great female fantasy-figure - when he desires a woman, brief though that moment may be, he will go to the ends of the earth for her. He may be disloyal, dishonest and amoral, but that only adds to his appeal. Stir a woman's repressed longings by adapting the Rake's mix of danger and pleasure. Symbol: Fire. The Rake burns with a desire that enflames the woman he is seducing. It is extreme, uncontrollable and dangerous. The Rake may end in hell, but the flames surrounding him often make him seem that much more desirable to women. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
created by  polite_society </p>
im sry but when i think of sexy, i dont think of a rake. garden ho, maybe. but not a rake. also, i think this is for a guy. god damn.
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| it's weird to sing a song about sex with your dad. this used to be my favorite song. i wanted it to be my wedding song. my mom scolded me. heh. |
[25 Apr 2004|09:33pm] |
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Paradise by the Dashboard Light//Meatloaf
I. Paradise
Boy:
I remember every little thing
As if it happened only yesterday
Parking by the lake
And there was not another car in sight
And I never had a girl
Looking any b e t t e r than you did
And all the kids at school
They were wishing they were me that night
And now our bodies are oh so close and tight
It never felt so good, it never felt so right
And we're glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife
C'mon! Hold on tight!
C'mon! Hold on tight!
Though it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night
I can see paradise by the dashboard light
Girl:
Ain't no doubt about it
We were doubly blessed
Cause we were barely s e v e n t e e n
And we were barely dressed
Ain't no doubt about it
Baby got to go and shout it
Ain't no doubt about it
We were doubly blessed
Boy:
Cause we were barely seventeen
And we were barely dressed
Baby doncha hear my h e a r t
You got it drowning out the radio
I've been waiting so long
For you to come along and have some fun
And I gotta let ya know
No you're never gonna r e g r e t it
So open up your eyes I got a big surprise
It'll feel all right
Well I wanna make your motor run
You got to do what you can
And let Mother Nature do the rest
Ain't no doubt about it
We were doubly blessed
Cause we were barely seventeen
And we were b a r e l y--
We're gonna go all the way tonight
We're gonna go all the way
And tonight's the night...
Radio Broadcast:
Ok, here we go, we got a real pressure cooker
going here, two down, nobody on, no score,
bottom of the ninth, there's the wind-up and
there it is, a line shot up the middle, look
at him go. This boy can really fly!
He's rounding first and really turning it on
now, he's not letting up at all, he's gonna
try for second; the ball is bobbled out in center,
and here comes the throw, and what a throw!
He's gonna slide in head first, here he comes, he's out!
No, wait, safe--safe at second base, this kid really
makes things happen out there.
Batter steps up to the plate, here's the pitch--
he's going, and what a jump he's got, he's trying
for third, here's the throw, it's in the dirt--
safe at third! Holy cow, stolen base!
He's taking a pretty big lead out there, almost
daring him to try and pick him off. The pitcher
glance over, winds up, and it's bunted, bunted
down the third base line, the suicide squeeze in on!
Here he comes, squeeze play, it's gonna be close,
here's the throw, there's the play at the plate,
holy cow, I think he's gonna make it!
II. Let Me Sleep On It
Girl:
Stop right there!
I gotta know right now!
Before we go any further--!
Do you love me?
Will you love me f o r e v e r?
Do you need me?
Will you never leave me?
Will you make me so happy for the rest of my life?
Will you take me away and will you make me your wife?
Boy:
Let me sleep on it
Baby, baby let me sleep on it
Let me sleep on it
And I'll give you my answer in the morning
Girl:
I gotta know right now!
Boy:
Let me sleep on it
Girl:
Will you love me forever?
Boy:
Let me sleep on it!!!
Girl:
Will you love me forever!!!
III. Praying for the End of Time
Boy:
I couldn't take it any longer
Lord I was c r a z e d
And when the feeling came upon me
Like a tidal wave
I started swearing to my god and on my mother's grave
That I would love you to the end of time
I swore that I would love you to the end of time!
So now I'm praying for the end of time
To hurry up and arrive
Cause if I gotta spend another minute with you
I don't think that I can really s u r v i v e
I'll never break my promise or forget my vow
But God only knows what I can do right now
I'm praying for the end of time
It's all that I can do
P r a y i n g for the end of time, so I can end my time with you!!!
Boy:
It was long ago and it was far away
and it was so much better than it is today
Girl:
It never felt so good
It never felt so right
And we were glowing like
A metal on the edge of a knife
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| oh and another one for today. this is for all you fuckers wishing me a happy 4.20 today. fuck you. |
[20 Apr 2004|08:57pm] |
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Straight Edge//Minor Threat
I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and fuck my head
Hang out with the living dead
Snort white shit up my nose
Pass out at the shows
I don't even think about s p e e d
That's something I just don't need
I've got the straight edge
I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and smoke d o p e
'Cause I know I can cope
Laugh at the thought of eating ludes
Laugh at the thought of sniffing glue
Always gonna keep in touch
Never want to use a c r u t c h
I've got the straight edge
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| im pretty confused about all of my relationships in my life. hmph. |
[20 Apr 2004|06:07pm] |
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I'm The Best At Ruining My Life//From Autumn to Ashes
I've boarded up the windows to keep the m o r n i n g from intrusion
I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of bed
When nothing falls in favor of
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to c o m m u n i c a t e
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin
Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant
So now I've blown it once again,
this would have been the last offense and
You should have been here months ago with o p e n arms and honest face
Address full doubt you've ever felt frustration well I'm choking on it now
And it's the hardest thing for me to shake
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to communicate
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin
Nights can be so v i o l e n t when beds become vacant
Is it because of this vacancy that you swear never to believe?
Honestly honest me, with a look that's so deceiving
I'll bite, chew, swallow, and digest the hands that feed me
With a b a y o n e t for a tongue,
Swallow swords inadvertently,
And to the organ flame I'll maintain a close adjacency
I have so many themes; I would love to explain to you
Farewell to all the days you were, w i t h i n my reach,
and as of right now everything is making perfect sense.
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin</strike>
Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant
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[24 Mar 2004|08:25pm] |
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Speed Of Pain//Marilyn Manson
They slit our throats
Like we were flowers
And our milk has been d e v o u r e d
When you want it
It goes away too fast
When you hate it
It always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're f r e e
The crack inside you fucking heart is me
[thought, not spoken:]
I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day
I wish I could sleep
But I can't lay on my back
Because there's a knife
For e v e r y d a y that I've known you
When you want it
it goes away yoo fast
When you hate it
It always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me
[thought, not spoken:]
I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day
Lie to me, cry to me, give to me
I would
Lie with me, die with me, give to me
I would
Keep all your s e c r e t s wrapped in dead hair
I hope at least we die holding hands for always
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[16 Mar 2004|08:36pm] |
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Like A Movie//Midtown
She tries to erase
She tries to replace
How it feels, but I...
Know she can never go home
She tries to erase
She tries to replace
How it feels, but I...
Know she can never go home
Tried to forget about
Living a good life
Free of positions
Make her feel vulnerable
She's loved and she's lost
She failed in the call
She seeks to find the answer, now
Woke up today around 6 in the morning
Violently shaking, remembering what she once saw
She bared it alone
So she carried on
She seeks to find the answers for...
The reasons her life did not turn out...
More like a movie
She's trying to forget it all
She tries to erase
She tries to replace
How it feels, but I...
Know she can never go home
She tries to erase
She tries to replace
How it feels, but I...
Know she can never go home
The reasons her life did not turn out...
More like a movie
She's trying to forget it all
I don't believe in anything
But I believe in you
I never trusted anyone
But somehow I trust you
And if I fall away, someday you might find me
If I fall away, s o m e d a y...
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| i havent seen this show in a really long time because stupid mtv canceled it but i was reading some old dj entries and i found it so here it is, in all it's glory |
[06 Mar 2004|10:25pm] |
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Gandhi Has A.D.D.//Clone High
Did you hear? Did you hear? Gandhi has A.D.D. Incurrable disease.
Did you hear? Did you hear? Don't tell Paul Revere.
Gandhi's contagious. Totally outragous!
A d i s e a s e with initials, that's the worst kind.
A.D.D. Has warped his mind.
Did you hear? Did you hear? Don't tell Paul Revere!
Don't tell Paul Revere!
DON'T TELL PAUL REVERE!
Paul Revere:
Too l a t e!
ra-bump, ra-bump,
ra-bump ra-bump ra-bump
Gandhi has A.D.D.! Gandhi has A.D.D.!
you get it from toilet seats!
Use a protective sheet!
Broadway People:
Attention Deficit Disorder!
A.D.D.!
*heavy breathing*
Abe Lincoln: It can't be true, but then again it rhymed so it must be.
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synesthesia//afi (great song, i recomend if you havent heard it, go out and do something about that) |
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omg i cant believe ive never seen this picture before. me, who has over 1000 pictures of afi related stuff on my computer (god i feel really sad right now. lol). i made the weirdest noise when i found it. it was kinda cute, i guess. this is single handedly the most beautiful picture ever. i know there are some of you who love davey too so im not going to hog the picture. enough ado, here is the picture.
le sigh
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| snow days call for new backgrounds that are the sex. *points* see, davey. oh yeah and this song reminds me of snow so here it goes |
[27 Feb 2004|12:45am] |
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A Winter's Tale//AFI
A chilling s i l e n c e
A world of violence
My breath materialized again.
Immaculate. Inanimate.
A comfort cutting time I see a string of white lights
Forever walking through December
F o r e v e r rise.
Forever longing for a sign of life,
A bringer of light
Forever right wandering together through
A world of violets.
Ice everlasting.
A full moon casting a purple veil enshrouding all.
I perambulate, somnambulant.
A solace piercing time I see a string of white lights.
Forever walking through December
Forever rise.
Forever l o n g i n g for a sign of life,
A bringer of light
Forever right wandering together through
A world of violets.
If only for one night,
If only for one night remember
If only for t o n i g h t
Together
C'mon
Forever walking through December
Forever rise.
Forever longing for a sign of life,
A bringer of light
Forever right w a n d e r i n g together through
A world of violets.
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| this is what i sang in my very nasal, very sick voice to max (and anyone else that would listen) on the bus today |
[24 Feb 2004|06:49pm] |
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Chicken Song//AFI
Chicken's good for the body
Chicken's good for the mind
Chicken's good for the funny bone
Chicken's easy on the eyes
Here we go
Yum-Yum chicken bone
B o c k B o c k Chicken
Yum-Yum chicken bone
Tell all your friends
Granola bar - nice and chewy
Granola bar - my best friend
Granola bar - how I love you
Granola bars don't beat the kids
Yum-Yum granola bar
Chew-Chew-Chewy
Yum-Yum granola bar
Tell all your friends
C h i c k e n and granola bars make a nice meal
Especially when you're all alone
It's something to eat when your wife's in the shelter
Because she ran into the door
One Two Three
Yum-Yum granola bone
Bock Bock c h e w y
Yum-Yum granola bone
Tell all your friends
Yum-Yum-Yummy
Bock-Bock-Bocky
Slap-Slap-Slappy
Tell all your friends
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i posted this on my dj but i figured you over here on lj might want to read it to. it was fun. ( 99 facts about lauren )
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[13 Feb 2004|06:59pm] |
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im the best at ruining my life//from autumn to ashes (and the lives of others) |
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The End With You//Box Car Racer
Our days are running t h i n
Our hopes will start to fall
I can feel the world collapse around me from within
And the letters keep coming by to let us know when time will die
And please God will you forgive us and give us one more try
If you will then we'll go as fast as we go far
Maybe well be forgotten when the world is t o r n a p a r t
I've been up all night long
Counting days that all went wrong
I opened my bedroom window
I wish this pain was gone
There are no useful drugs to escape from feeling numb
I remember an amazing birthday
I r e m e m b e r when I was young
If you will then we'll go as fast as we go far
Maybe we'll be forgotten when the world is torn apart
'Cause the sun won't be so blinding
And the rains will finally come
The a s h e s will slowly pile up just to prove we're finally done
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| happy song for once. also, i think it kinda sounds like davey havok not being gay and all. makes me smile just a little. |
[09 Feb 2004|07:58pm] |
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in the flat field//bauhaus |
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Lady Stardust//Ziggy Stardust (David Bowie)
People stared at the makeup on his face
Laughed at his long black hair, his animal grace
The boy in the bright blue jeans
Jumped up on the s t a g e
And Lady Stardust sang his songs
Of darkness and disgrace
And he was a l r i g h t, the band was altogether
Yes he was alright, the song went on forever
And he was awful nice
Really quite out of sight
Really quite paradise
And he sang all night long
Femme fatales emerged from shadows
To watch this creature fair
Boys stood upon their chairs
To make their point of view
I s m i l e d sadly for a love I could not obey
Lady Stardust sang his songs
Of darkness and dismay
And he was alright, the band was altogether
Yes he was alright, the song went on f o r e v e r
And he was awful nice
Really quite out of sight
Really quite paradise
And he sang all night long
Oh how I sighed
When they asked if I knew his n a m e
And he was alright, the band was altogether
Yes he was alright, the song went on forever
And he was awful nice
Really quite out of sight
Really quite paradise
And he sang all night long
Get some p u s s y now!
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